You have to stand for something

Or you will fall for everything.

I feel so alone sometimes in my thoughts. Caught between wanting to be "cool" and wanting to Follow Him, without distractions. Without hesitation. Am I better than anyone, absolutely not. Does it come off that way when I don't agree with things "of this world"? As much as I hate to admit, I imagine it does. But I am certainly not, better, by any means. I have my faults. I am fearful of things (irrationally), which tells you that I struggle with fully trusting the Lord. I am an absolute recluse when it comes to confrontation, I will avoid it with everything I have. I have a short fuse with my kids sometimes. I am terrible with money. Where am I going with this? I just want my kids to one day read this and know that in the midst of chaos their mother stood for something and that means standing against somethings.

1. I am 100% against abortion AND the death penalty. I don't see how you can be for one and not the other. If there are people out there that have had an abortion this DOES NOT mean I am against you or think you are going to hell. I do not think that whatsoever. I will pray for healing and I will not judge, it is not my job.
2. I have not read 50 shades of grey, I will not. I actually had it in my possession for a while but every time I looked at it I just felt sick about reading it. I wonder if my children will even know what 50 shades of grey is....I hope not. If you have read this it does not mean we can't be friends anymore....it just means I won't read it....or go see the movie ;) (I feel SO alone in this one, it seems NO one is standing with me)
3. I will not see Magic Mike....a movie about male strippers. As silly as it may seem I just won't.
4. We are withholding some vaccines from our kids. We have done the research and this was not an overnight decision....it took us almost 5 years to make it. This does not mean my kid will give you polio.