I really have nothing for today to write, so I will start with what is on my heart. It's been a very sad day for me. It stems from conflict in my life and it has somehow spread into every aspect of my life. How did I let this happen, this toxic part seep into everything I do. I don't know if its because I am a female or it's my personality but whenever the handfuls of times I have had conflict it has consumed me and overwhelms me. I start thinking "maybe this is why we aren't pregnant yet" "maybe I am awful and this one person is right" "why" "what is so horrible about me that I can't fix this" and then I think, "stop feeling sorry for yourself, you are doing the right things saying the right things and while you not perfect you are a child of God......so suck it up and get over it"
I am not angry. I am just so sad. But the best part about that is I know that when I am at my lowest of low's God is right here with me holding me and telling me everything is ok and he wishes he could take my sadness away. As I type this I have a sleeping toddler, and two "big kids" playing nicely "ok" together on the back porch, what a blessing each of my children are. I have an amazing husband working hard to provide for us and he loves us more than I could ever imagine. My friends are so great and supportive words cannot describe what their shoulder and ear have meant to me in all of this. This song has been on my heart almost every day I love it!
Casting Crowns
If We Are The Body
It's crowded in worship today
As she slips in
Trying to fade into the faces
The girls' teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know
Farther than they know
CHORUS
But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way
There is a way
A traveler is far away from home
He sheds his coat
And quietly sinks into the back row
The weight of their judgmental glances tells him that his chances
Are better out on the road
CHORUS
But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way
Jesus paid much too high a price
For us to pick and choose who should come
And we are the Body of Christ
Chorus (2x)
If we are the body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way
Jesus is the way
You are a wonderful person and an awesome friend! Thinking of you! xoxo
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